Not Rocket Scientology

Illustration by Devon Geyelin

The plain glass door sits between two storefronts on Whalley Avenue, and a sign directs visitors up the gray-carpeted staircase into an L-shaped corridor. Suddenly, his name is everywhere. It’s plastered across posters, running down the spines of books that fill the bookcases lining the walls, and printed beneath his picture, enshrined to the right of the entrance. As soon as you walk into the Church of Scientology of New Haven, you begin to breathe L. Ron Hubbard, founder of Dianetics and Scientology.

Monica Koehler, an employee of the Church, tells me that Scientology means the study of knowledge. Hubbard published his first work in the 1950s and died in 1986, leaving behind a massive body of writings. There are no official leaders of the Church of Scientology—instead, all practices and beliefs are reinforced by Hubbard’s work. Kathryn Lofton, an associate professor of religious studies and professor of American studies at Yale, says there is no area of life that Hubbard did not touch on in his writings, and that practicing Scientology is “a surround-sound experience, where Hubbard is the surround.”

Hubbard condensed his earliest research into the idea of Dianetics, which claims that the mind can be divided into the analytical mind, responsible for rational thought, and the reactive mind, the source of all man’s evil. In moments of pain, the analytical mind shuts down and the reactive mind takes over. Within the reactive mind are engrams, or hidden commands, which are formed during traumatic moments and lay dormant until triggered. Dianetics is the process through which a practitioner can clear the mind of these engrams and lead a pain-free existence.

The church has stood at its Whalley location for the past thirty years, but it will soon be moving to a larger location nearby, to accommodate more worshippers. Koehler could not reveal any specifics as to when the move was occurring, though plans for the move have been in the works since 2005. Koehler said she couldn’t give me an exact number of practitioners in New Haven. It is difficult to quantify the exact number, she emphasized, because some worship at the center, while others practice at home. Worshipping at the center could include attending seminars, meeting with a representative from the center for a Dianetics session, or simply learning more about Scientology. This nebulous definition is consistent with Scientology’s religious structure as a movement; the organization is typically reluctant to publish figures. What is known is that, typically, Scientology has been most appealing to the aspiring middle class and is concentrated in urban areas, like New Haven, Lofton said.

But, according to Koehler, “the way to learn about Scientology is to find out what is true for you.” It does seem contradictory to try to tell the story of Scientology without experiencing it for myself. In an email, she offers me a free trial auditing session. Dianetics teaches that participating in such a session is the first step an individual can take to eliminate the reactive mind.

At the center, Koehler takes me to an isolated room relatively free of posters and books. She sits across from me at a plain white desk. Her soft brown eyes and calming voice add warmth to the oddly unadorned room. She begins by asking me a few questions about my life, and what in particular I want to fix. For Scientology to have an impact on an individual, she says, that individual must be able to recognize an aspect of her life that could improve: “It can’t just work on its own. You have to be the one that wants to change something.” Across the top of a pile of printer paper, Koehler writes my name in large, loopy cursive, and directly under it she writes her own. This begins our auditing session. She tells me to close my eyes, explaining that I am allowed to stop the session at any time.

Auditing sessions are based on the mind’s ability to transport itself back to a particular moment in time. Koehler asks me about my breakfast. Separate from the act of simply remembering, the exercise requires you to relive the experience: to smell the scents, see the surroundings, and hear the noises. The goal of an auditing session, Koehler says, is to isolate engrams in order to reclassify them as memories in the analytical mind.

The idea seems ludicrous to me. I smile as I begin recounting my breakfast experience at Blue State on Wall Street that morning. There was no painful emotion associated with that morning’s breakfast, but Koehler wants to make sure I was comfortable with the techniques of Dianetics before processing a more painful incident. After I relive breakfast two or three times, Koehler asks me if I am ready to move on.

I think back to a time earlier this semester when I felt like my world seemed to be coming down around me. I felt like I was friendless, I hated my classes, and had gotten involved in all the wrong extracurriculars. I felt that no one I had met at Yale had any idea who I really was. She guides me as I relive this sort-of breakdown. She prompts me with questions about how I am feeling, what I am seeing, hearing, and smelling. I recount the memory twice all the way through. It started in Blue State on Wall Street and ended in my common room.

An hour passes. I begin my third recounting. Getting tired and frustrated, I dig the heels of my hands into my eyes and suddenly all I can see is blue. It is a bright royal blue, suddenly extinguishing the blackness that had filled my mind for the last hour. Koehler asks me to describe it, and I tell her was familiar but that I can’t place it. Then I realize it is the blue of the Blue State logo. Shocked, I take my hands away from my eyes, and immediately all I can see is the red of the logo’s text.

When I leave the church, I don’t feel that I have learned anything new about myself. The experience was not quite delving, but I imagine what else I could have felt. The experience was not quite probing. What I left with was a mind full of color—visions of bright, bright blue.

  1. Rex Fowler, a Scientologist reverend, is serving a life sentence for the murder of Thomas Cianco in Colorado. Gur Finkelstein, Scientology’s legal rep in Israel, is facing arson and attempted murder charges after he tried to burn down the Scientology center there, kill a man and frame it all on radical Jewish groups; he failed.

    Narconon, a Scientologist drug rehab franchise, was shut down by Canadian authorities in Quebec for health and safety law violations and is facing multiple fraud and patient abuse/death lawsuits in Oklahoma. The Church of Scientology was convicted of fraud in France; their Turin Italy location was raided by the police for spying on people. Belgian federal prosecutors are about to unleash a tsunami of criminal charges on them(forgery, fraud, extortion, etc)

    THIS is Scientology.

  2. I enjoyed the article you wrote on Scientology from a personal
    experience perspective. In my experience with Dianetics, succeeding
    sessions did delve deeper into the Reactive Mind with some astonishing
    results. One of the reasons that Dianetics is so popular is that it can
    be done one on one in the privacy of your own home or dorm room. You
    just need to read the procedure and do it with a friend or family member, or nowdays, you can watch a DVD and then help someone, and yourself, with Dianetics, The Modern Science of Mental Health.

    In the past, Dianetics and Scientology was targetted by the medical/
    psychiatric profession who felt their monopoly on mental health treatment was being jeapodized by such an effecive low cost (the price of the book) therapy. It took a while to handle this and it’s repurcussions, but now Scientology and Dianetics are expanding like
    never before all over the planet. Scientology is one of the fastest growing religions in the world, if not the fastest.

    but Scientology and Dianetics

  3. Horror! Terrible! Frightening! Great God Almighty! By Hercules!
    Hey, wait a minute – I’M a Scientologist! I can’t help but wonder if the disseminator of all the terrifying information above has an axe to grind. Personally, when racked by anxiety, I went for Dianetics auditing and got my life back. When I subsequently reported to my medical doctor to schedule the surgery he’d told me I needed, he looked at me in surprise when informing me it was no longer necessary. But that is just me – and personally I am thankful I do not have to be on any drugs or medication. I went on to join staff here in New Haven and in fact met my wife here, coincidentally that woman with the soft brown eyes mentioned in the article. For me Scientology is understanding, an understanding that frees one from fear. I use that understanding as a public high school teacher in the city. I have also used it to raise three beautiful daughters, two in the Jewish faith and one a Scientologist. -I cannot promise everyone who comes here the miracles I experienced, or even a fulfilling life and loving, beautiful wife. But I can promise those I meet that if they look for themselves and remain true to their own ideals they will have the same chance for a meaningful, fulfilling life that I have had. And as for criminals, well, no matter their race or religion, they should be punished or, even better, rehabilitated so they can once again be happy, contributing members of the human race.

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